Tuesday, May 18, 2010

looking back

Today I had the opportunity to go back to my high school to see my sister perform in the Broadway Review for Choir. Made me think back to when I was in high school. All the fun... kinda... that I had. I was never "nerdy" or "popular" I was never the "know it all" or goody two shoes" I was never anything too amazing. I was just me. When you have a class of 884 or so a lot of kids are just people. They are easily overlooked. It's easy to stay under the radar. I enjoyed my classes. I stayed out of trouble. I was just me. I loved Theatre, Mythology, and British Literature. high school is supposed to be "the best years of your life" Yeah ok. Whoever said that had lost a few marbles. High school is just a stepping stone. Just one more stair to the ladder of life. One more curve to the pitch. One more step to help us grow and become who will be. Many have dreams of becoming rock stars, models and the brains of the operation. Do we ever really reach those goals? My goal, and this surprises most, was simple. I never wanted more than to be a wife and mother. Most say "yeah but you had to want to go to college, or do something with your life". In all honesty, in my mind, there never was, is or will be a greater thing than to be a mother. I never saw myself going to college getting a degree. I never saw myself being a teacher or nurse. My thoughts are simple. Be who you want not what the world tell you to be. We get so caught up in what we should look like rather than what we should act like. Women are so obsessed with their image rather than the upbringing of their children that the minds of children are less. Education is falling. I'm not saying women should quit their jobs and stay home. But I think they should spend quality time with their children so they learn and grow. So much of what we know is taught at an early age. If that isn't there our minds don't grow. We loose our imagination, forced to grow up and be adults.

ok so I noticed that This blog I titled "Fordham Family happenings" but I don't really mention my husband. Well here is the thing. I don't know what to tell anyone about his life. We don't have a life together as of yet.... yes we are married but we wont even live together till September. He stays busy in Iraq. Soon he will be back in Germany. Then I can go see him! Daniel is the best ever. I know every woman says that about her husband. But I truly never thought I would find someone like Daniel. He is my hero. I am so glad I married him. So glad I met him. Even though it was online, even though I only met him in person DAYS before our wedding. I wouldn't have changed it for the world. He is so wonderful.

Babe since I know you'll actually read this. I love you! I am so glad to have found you! Forever and Always!

Monday, May 10, 2010

busy.... yet not


I feel so worn out, yet I only work. I go to work for 3 hours come home for 5 then go back to work for another 3 hours. It isn't a lot to do. But some days I just feel SO worn down. It doesn't help that I don't sleep. Ever since Dan went back to Iraq I wake up every 2 to 3 hours rolling over trying to find him. It is NO fun. I miss him tons. Today I was able to take a nap for about an hour that was nice. I sprayed some of Dan's cologne on my pillow and it made me cry to smell it. It's funny how a simple , yet magnificent smell can make me cry. But it did help me sleep also. The apartment has stayed clean all week minus a few things. I've been working on getting the thank you cards done from the wedding I figured 2 months is long enough haha. They should all be done and in the mail by next week.

Some girls from work are throwing me a bridal shower this Saturday. It'll be fun I think. So once all the wedding thank you cards go out then I'll have to work on the bridal shower ones. Shouldn't be to bad. Honestly I'm kinda of excited since I didn't actually have one before I got married. I don't regret when and how I got married. I do wish I had had more time to plan and do things a little more "traditional" I suppose. Bridal shower before REAL wedding invitations with pics of Dan and I. Flower girls grooms men. Those things. But it is what it is and I'm happy. I love dan so much. I'm so glad I married him! He is so perfect for me!!!! He is my world!!! I can't wait to live actually live with him. I miss being near him. It still amazes me how we only spent 15 total days together and yet I feel like we've been close for years!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

wednesday


not much has happened since my last post. I am going to Utah the 19 to the 26th of this month then back to AZ for my sisters high school graduation. then officially moving to Utah for 2 months to nanny for my 2nd cousin. She has a 2 year old boy named hunter who has the biggest cutest smile EVER! Still missing Dan A TON! Can't wait for August so I can go see him in Germany. Choose to be happy!!

"Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response."
-- Mildred Barthel.