looking back

Today I had the opportunity to go back to my high school to see my sister perform in the Broadway Review for Choir. Made me think back to when I was in high school. All the fun... kinda... that I had. I was never "nerdy" or "popular" I was never the "know it all" or goody two shoes" I was never anything too amazing. I was just me. When you have a class of 884 or so a lot of kids are just people. They are easily overlooked. It's easy to stay under the radar. I enjoyed my classes. I stayed out of trouble. I was just me. I loved Theatre, Mythology, and British Literature. high school is supposed to be "the best years of your life" Yeah ok. Whoever said that had lost a few marbles. High school is just a stepping stone. Just one more stair to the ladder of life. One more curve to the pitch. One more step to help us grow and become who will be. Many have dreams of becoming rock stars, models and the brains of the operation. Do we ever really reach those goals? My goal, and this surprises most, was simple. I never wanted more than to be a wife and mother. Most say "yeah but you had to want to go to college, or do something with your life". In all honesty, in my mind, there never was, is or will be a greater thing than to be a mother. I never saw myself going to college getting a degree. I never saw myself being a teacher or nurse. My thoughts are simple. Be who you want not what the world tell you to be. We get so caught up in what we should look like rather than what we should act like. Women are so obsessed with their image rather than the upbringing of their children that the minds of children are less. Education is falling. I'm not saying women should quit their jobs and stay home. But I think they should spend quality time with their children so they learn and grow. So much of what we know is taught at an early age. If that isn't there our minds don't grow. We loose our imagination, forced to grow up and be adults.

ok so I noticed that This blog I titled "Fordham Family happenings" but I don't really mention my husband. Well here is the thing. I don't know what to tell anyone about his life. We don't have a life together as of yet.... yes we are married but we wont even live together till September. He stays busy in Iraq. Soon he will be back in Germany. Then I can go see him! Daniel is the best ever. I know every woman says that about her husband. But I truly never thought I would find someone like Daniel. He is my hero. I am so glad I married him. So glad I met him. Even though it was online, even though I only met him in person DAYS before our wedding. I wouldn't have changed it for the world. He is so wonderful.

Babe since I know you'll actually read this. I love you! I am so glad to have found you! Forever and Always!

busy.... yet not

I feel so worn out, yet I only work. I go to work for 3 hours come home for 5 then go back to work for another 3 hours. It isn't a lot to do. But some days I just feel SO worn down. It doesn't help that I don't sleep. Ever since Dan went back to Iraq I wake up every 2 to 3 hours rolling over trying to find him. It is NO fun. I miss him tons. Today I was able to take a nap for about an hour that was nice. I sprayed some of Dan's cologne on my pillow and it made me cry to smell it. It's funny how a simple , yet magnificent smell can make me cry. But it did help me sleep also. The apartment has stayed clean all week minus a few things. I've been working on getting the thank you cards done from the wedding I figured 2 months is long enough haha. They should all be done and in the mail by next week.

Some girls from work are throwing me a bridal shower this Saturday. It'll be fun I think. So once all the wedding thank you cards go out then I'll have to work on the bridal shower ones. Shouldn't be to bad. Honestly I'm kinda of excited since I didn't actually have one before I got married. I don't regret when and how I got married. I do wish I had had more time to plan and do things a little more "traditional" I suppose. Bridal shower before REAL wedding invitations with pics of Dan and I. Flower girls grooms men. Those things. But it is what it is and I'm happy. I love dan so much. I'm so glad I married him! He is so perfect for me!!!! He is my world!!! I can't wait to live actually live with him. I miss being near him. It still amazes me how we only spent 15 total days together and yet I feel like we've been close for years!

wednesday

not much has happened since my last post. I am going to Utah the 19 to the 26th of this month then back to AZ for my sisters high school graduation. then officially moving to Utah for 2 months to nanny for my 2nd cousin. She has a 2 year old boy named hunter who has the biggest cutest smile EVER! Still missing Dan A TON! Can't wait for August so I can go see him in Germany. Choose to be happy!!

"Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response."

-- Mildred Barthel.

as of late

This week has been a week of progress minus the fact I got strep throat. I'm excited tomorrow is Friday! I am excited for some sleep... hopefully. I haven't been sleeping well I guess that's part of having my husband gone. I miss him so much. I love crawling into bed next to him because the first thing he does is wrap is nice toasty feet around my ice ones. I LOVE IT!!!! Today was an interesting day at work. I didn't go in this morning due to strep throat and not wanting to pass it to the ladies. I had my dad call me in a prescription so I wouldn't have to miss too much work. I got there tonight and my boss acted like she didn't believe me. Luckily I showed up because about 10 minutes after I got there She got a call saying one of the men over at her other care home had passed. That amazed me. SO today was kind of sad. He was a sweet man. Darwin Gunnell. He had a car shop real close to my house. More drama with my ex roommate. It's over now. Even if she thinks she's right and I'm wrong I know the truth as does Heavenly father. I've been watching prison break (TV series) It's pretty amazing. I'm in season 4. Mothers day is coming up! I can't wait to be a mom.... I mean I can I'm not ready for that. I want some time with my sweet Daniel first. Then eventually. I'm ready for it to be August o I can go be with my husband again.

My mother's day gift. Going in a frame that says "Mother 'All that I am all that I ever will be I owe to my Angel mother" - Abraham Lincoln

finally

Ok so It hasn't gone to print yet but this will probly be our thank you card from the wedding!

Thursday and Friday

Rough day yesterday. 6 hour shift at work then home to a house full of anger. My roommate that I was having drama with has now moved out! But She was not a happy camper yesterday. She was finishing moving the last of her things. And then once she was gone I rearranged the furniture! It has opened up the apartment a lot. It's also clean now! It's amazing! I love coming home to a clean apt. Today was a good day. a little drawn out but still good. Glad to be home. I miss my sweet husband but it wont be much longer! I can't believe it's almost the end of April already. I took Daniel to the airport just over a month ago. It amazes me. Daniel makes me so happy. I can't wait for it to be August so I can see him! Life seems so insignificant without him around. It's funny how we have only spent 15 days together from point when we started talking a year and 2 months ago to now. It amazes me that I can be so in love with him miss him so much and only have spent so little time with him. I love you Dan! Always and Forever!